There's so much on my mind, I don't even know where to begin.
I've somewhat recently finished reading a book called 'Crazy Love' by Francis Chan. Normally I'm a speedy reader, but at first I had to take this book slow because there was so much to digest.
I've read many Christian self-help books, but I guess all of them had to do with purity and God. 'Crazy Love' dealt with our relationship with God, and only God. It was really eye-opening and makes me want to change the way I live my life.
There was so much to process that I can't write it all down - my hand would get severe arthritis.
The point is, now I want to drastically change my life, but I'm scared. I want to change so much it'll even take other Christians by surprise.
But I'm afraid - I had to talk to Brenna (my best friend) about it. I lent the book to her, and though she hasn't finished reading it yet, we had a deep, heart to heart conversation.
It turns out, I'm not alone in my fear to make theses changes.
Talking to Brenna got a lot off both of our chests. We both want to change our lifestyles to become better Christians. We shared our flaws, our fears, our hopes.
One thing we discussed was quitting facebook. It may not seem like the biggest step towards a better relationship with God, but when you think about it, it can be.
Brenna and I decided we were both unhealthily addicted to facebook. It replaces God in that all the pointless time we spend on the computer, we could be getting to know our Father better.
Brenna and I decided to think about the whole quitting facebook thing. I haven't heard her decision yet, but I think I know mine.
It's time to quit. I know it'll be hard, but seriously, most of my 'friends' I have on facebook are just accquaintances. The people I do actually talk to, I see them in person often enough, or have some other means to communicate with them.
Without facebook, I'll have so much more time, and hopefully be less distracted. I'm scared to quit, and scared that when I do, something else will step in and serve as my distraction from God.
But with Brenna as my accountability partner, and trust in God, I know I can do it.
Faith is about risks, and it's a risk I'm willing to take.
"Therefore, I urge you brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."
-Romans 12:1-2
Amber, I support you. Honestly, I am weak. I have "quitted facebook" a number of times, and yet I always go crawling back. I tell myself I have a facebook to "spread the Gospel", but is that really true? I don't know. Same with Roleplaying. I keep with that only because I tell myself that I am given opportunities to spread His word through my postings there...but I find I do not do that often enough to justify the time I dedicate towards my RP sites.
ReplyDeleteBut if this is what you decide to do, I am behind you every step of the way. Maybe if you do do it, it will motivate me to take that next step. Or at least get to the point where I repress my urges to be on facebook and RP sites 24/7. As long as you promise me we will stay in touch here and through email, I am with you :)
Less than three you,
Lindsay
PS: Can I find "Crazy Love" in a regu;ar bookstore, you think?
First, you probably can find 'Crazy Love' in a regular bookstore, probably in Barnes & Noble if you have one in your area, it'd probably be in the Christian life section. It has a red cover, and simply two arrows on the front pointing two different directions, with the title. I hope you find it, because it's a great read and has really impacted me. I couldn't put it down, but I had to force myself to, just so I could process everything. There's a specific chapter that might make you feel guilty, and no matter how much it does, don't quit. My sister (Ooch) did, and I'm going to make her try reading that book again, it's really worth it.
ReplyDeleteAs for the facebook/RP thing, thank you for the support. I had to quit rping, because at the time I was more addicted to that than facebook, and when I quit rping, facebook became my new addiction. This time I'm determined not to get a new distraction, and this time I have a friend who is with me every step of the way.
I will definitely keep in touch with you via email, but I'll send you my new address that I check more often.
Less than three you too!
<3 Amber